Back from docs

Had to go to the docs early this morning .. walked back .. popped into the Oxfam bookhop and got three books .. me last for a while .. one called "Beyond Coincidence"(2003), others "What remains to be discovered"(1998) and "Why people believe weird things."(1997) Looked at a couple of health books and read about the proven benefits of meditation .. I'm meditating most days now .. for about ten minutes .. it gets easier each time. My mind stays pretty concentrated on the mantra now. Also have a book to read about living in Afghanistan under the Taliban from one of the charity shops. My brother said there was a good selection of books in the charity shops and he's right. I'd found some health and general knowledge ones in the hospice one too earlier in the week. I forget what he found .. but something he'd been looking for .. probably about the Beats or socialism or art!!!!! He said that the university bookhop had some obsure Marxist type books in, something related to the SWP. I said that I thought there was a slight interest brewing up again, at least there had been in London for a little while but that it wasn't so dogmatic these days .. more feeling that there should be a fairer world but not necessarily Marxist and more mixed in with other things like the environment ... he was surprized. Marxism had been quite a big youth thing when he was young .. I said that I didn't think it would ever become like that again. I'd thought it had been a bit too dogmatic in the 70s .. too much power over and not enough self expression encouraged .. though the SWP had encouraged feminism I believe. Though in the States some felt that it didn't and for that and other reasons the Freedom Socialist Party was born. I wasn't a Marxist .. being more like it is today I guess but from a different era. I think I'd've preferred the FSP to the SWP if I had been Marxist. I'd've been interested in how much party control there was/is .. one of the reasons they split was the control in the SWP of the time.

Taken me next doses of pain relief and the herbal pill .. just about to chew the calcium one .. done ... and have had a sandwich for lunch and a yogurt.
I'll potter off to have me hot chocolate soon .. usually take me arabic books and get stuck into that there now. Pleased that it's going ok. Not sure about going out tonight .. don't think I'm well enough really.

I wrote an entry last night but lost it because I hadn't been signed in .. serves me right .. I should've been back in bed .. didn't stay up too long though but it was just about something I was thinking about so I wrote about it. Gone though now!!!!!!!