And

It was one of those nights of a million guilt trips too. I've written about this before but last night wasn't very good on that score, though it's not as if I don't know, but sometimes the mind works overtime a bit. It's usually in the early hours.

You must be very *****, I'm not even sure what word you'd use there, if you've managed to get through to my age without f*cking up somewhere along the line in a pretty big way.