rabbit rabbit rabbit .................

... oh, and about the "girl" .. it seems that everyone knew where she lived/lives as people used to make a habit of saying where she was very loudly as they passed here .. often finding it quite funny .. and it was repeated time after time after time after time ... etc.

bye fer now

I'm leaving the blogs for now .. according to something I was told it could all be second hand news anyway .. and other sources are much more exciting than reading this.

Don't know if the girl exists or it's just something they've found on a website somewhere .. though she's often mentioned along with the YMCA near here.. along with other crap .. guess I'm expected to react to the crap .. you've heard some of the reactions maybe.

Well ..........

For the past three weeks I've had a bit of trouble with some pills .. solved now .. but I'm also aware that not everything was down to that .. and this has been going on for much longer than a few weeks.

I've suggested, about the music, that they go find a record shop to picket, or something .. if that's where they're at.

I believe there are other blogs out there supposed to be written by me .. the only ones I've written are the four on this account.

Basically, I've been bullied. I don't know quite how it started here .. apparently someone showed a photo of me to a few people to see if they knew me and when they didn't started telling lies about me.

This is the result.

No one has spoken to me to see if any of this crap is real .. and I think that about says it all.

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It is difficult .. maybe it'll be a few days or so before things are better .. anyway he was still a bit muddled yesterday so we'll see. Should have gone to the doc .

Was just thinking of Dr Wei last time I saw him in A and E. There I was thinking why is this man asking all these questions when I'm feeling so ill. Why don't they just help but ofcourse they have to find out what is happening because it might not be anything to do with my illness that they are used to seeing.

Last time I ended up in resuscitation because they thought I might have a heart attack didn't but had three days having to have everything done for me because I could hardly move .. amazing how the nurses worked .. had someone with me most of the time for the first day on the ward doing obs and just keeping things ticking over .. such hard work.

Guess you can kind of think that it could be easier to tell what you're feeling than it actually is. Though they are trying to work out if you have certain conditions.

Anyway to me a headache is a headache .. though could be very bad .. but add a bit of a fever.

Well

Headache's gone .. but I can't really tell just how things are .. but they certainly look better this morning.

Seems to be over it anyway .. but not sure what the fever has left behind.

Suppose it kinda shows you how difficult it can be for doctors trying to understand what someone else is feeling.

Seems a lot better anyway.

Um

Seems better but I'm not sure. Must've had quite a temperature I guess. Once before .. will do some reading on the net .. not quite sure what to do over all though .. seems a very difficult situation.

Er ...........

Not til about three days ago and then it didn't really sink in til yesterday morning. Now that it has guess it's my new comfort blanket!! Suppose I should've taken a bit more notice to begin with.

Anyway .. there you go.

Well, can't see how they could ... but .. I am probably wrong .. in general .. going by experience

So difficult to see how though whatever way you look at it.

Anyway .. sunny day again .. yesterday I had an appointment at the hospital .. am back on the Cellcept and waiting for some treatment to be sorted out .. it's going to take a while though. Now I've got to see about trying to sort the rest out.

And as for what I was told on the phone last night .. guess things are much the same. Was a bit surprised among other things .. but I guess to have expected anything else would've been rather silly. Guess TJ and I could be like twins .. yeah .. well, they kinda have really haven't they. Maybe identical plaques in the town halls celebrating all the hard work she did to achieve this.

Not everyone's cup of tea certainly but there you go.

Morning

Latest favourite piece of new music

http://freemusicarchive.org/music/Wildbirds_and_Peacedrums

Not recorded it for anyone yet.

Don't know

And .. yeah .. I just don't know .. I just don't know. All I can say is that it can be very difficult to tell just what's going on when someone else isn't feeling well.

There are obviously headaches and Headaches and HEADACHES.

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No .. didn't really spend all that much time thinking about it .. did test out one thing .. and still no joy .. can't work it out at all. Though I'm happy to think that later I was very riled up and'll just leave that.

And yeah .. if I'd ignored it people would've said I was stupid too.

Anyway .. hope to get the pain meds sorted out .. want to ask about the gabepentin too .. can't remember it being that effective but apparently, it can take a while to reach it's full strength .. as can the amitriptyline which had helped quickly for me .. suppose it depends on what it's needed for .. but it also made me feel a bit ill .. but someone has said that maybe I just needed to get used to it.

I'll ask if I can give it another try at a much lower dose.

I'm not asking that all my pain will go but I am hoping for a reasonable reduction through the meds that are available now .. and hoping that other things will still be on track.

Health problems

Perhaps you do all think I'm totally off my head .. all I can say is that someone here needs some treatment.


And that is the truth.

Tuesday

Searching again .. looking for a link. The site for people getting together to play music together .. or one of them. The one with the woman with the lovely voice.

I hoped I might've saved a link to her perhaps in capitals or something that might have easily let me recognise it easily but I haven't .. think I've found it though .. just got to find her now.

Must've done a Google search for that sort of site I guess as I've saved links to two different sites that are that kind of music communities.

Also decided to join somewhere that other people have spoken about .. within 24 hours of deciding I was too ill and too old.

Bit late really .. but there you go.

So

Guess some people don't have a very good grip on reality.

Hippies

http://www.jamendo.com/en/album/63039

Live in forrests.

So boring

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

http://www.jamendo.com/en/album/4219

All sounds the same.

Etc

Well, no, ofcourse not .. did I really say that!!! I was really born in a blackberry thicket in the Arctic circle.

Arctic circle .. Battersea?

Maybe my aunt was a giraffe.

Oh, sorry, that would be Australia, wouldn't it.

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About four days. But it had been going on for longer than that .. remember the people with the supposedly x ray eyes that could see into my woven bag. Couple of other things too.

And the club with the apparently strange door policy .. would've been a very strange club all round. I mean can you imagine it .. oramorph!!!!!!

Fortunately I have points of reference that let me know I haven't lost it completely.

Monday

After today .. well, the last few days I think I'll be looking for somewhere else to live. Where I recognise my own life for a start and so do other people.

Sunday

OIH



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Will definitely ask about trying the amitriptyline again.

And, strangely, this has led me to Vit D. Seems that a deficiency can cause pain but, ofcourse people are worried about being in the sun now. You don't need to be in the sun for long to top up during the summer

http://edition.cnn.com/2009/HEALTH/08/03/vitamin.d.children/index.html


http://www.patient.co.uk/health/Vitamin-D-Deficiency.htm


http://newsblog.mayoclinic.org/2009/03/20/mayo-clinic-researchers-link-vitamin-d-and-chronic-pain-relief/


http://www.emaxhealth.com/1020/83/32596/ten-health-risks-low-vitamin-d-levels.html