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I've got a lot to do but will keep the blog going too. I seem more interested in things than I was. Will read the new book first though .. won't take long .. just more peoples experiences. Not sure quite in what respect but around the same kind of subject.

The more you put into it the more you'll learn has been my experience. And if you're really interested making your own book containing experiences that point in the right direction .. maybe from people you know who you like and trust, your own and those from books etc that you rate.

Can be from any angle too .. maybe something you find out about science .. like some of the ideas and discoveries in the BBC programme I linked to some time back. That's gone now but I guess there'll be more.

I've drawn my own conclusions about things by thinking it all through. I think I'm right about there being a life after passing over and I also think I'm right about the nature of it. I guess how sure is being reflected by being rather perplexed by it all. If I didn't think there was I wouldn't be trying to work out what it could be like or how it all works ... lol .. I wouldn't be wasting my time.

Don't even go to immortality!!!! But then again .. just the fact that anything exists .. the scientific brain twister ... lol .. or that there is anywhere for it to exist in ........ etc ...........!!! There must be so much that is just so different and, maybe, even incomprehensible from here, because the concepts will be so different.

Just taken my pills .. now go and get something to eat.

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Anyway, now everyone should have enough info to look into the possibilities of their being a high chance that there is life after death. Know that has to be true .. because if you can read this and talk about it you can read and talk about other things on the net .. and borrow books from the library and talk about books and sites you have read.

Tuesday

Very tired .. well, I know that walking is going to tire me so I have to rest if I do .. and I don't sleep much at the moment .. though that's better than it was for the last week or so, apart from the last couple of days, in hospital.

Just been resting, reading random blogs and listening to music for most of the day. Well, and trying to sort things out medically after leaving hospital which hasn't been the easiest thing to do.

Did get that other book in the end .. have no idea what I'll make of it.

Sunday

Haven't been sleeping much recently .. infact I'm probably the tiredest I've ever been .. didn't sleep much in hospital.

Have dozed quite a bit today though .. think this music might've helped

http://www.jamendo.com/fr/album/60189

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I think I'll try to have an OBE again .. though it'll probably be a lot of hard work .. researching and then trying different exercises that are meant to help ... all for nothing.

Just want to see what I make of the experience. It's nice reading about and listening to other people's OBEs but it would be nice to actually have one myself so that I could talk from first hand rather than second hand experience.

Two people have told me about their NDEs .. one happened about a year ago and the other many years ago. And I know about another quite similar experience. Guy was a sceptic, isn't now though doesn't talk about it anymore. Not quite sure why but I think it's cause he was so ill and just doesn't want to keep on talking about it all. He didn't tell that many people anyway, just the medical staff and his closer family and friends ... which is more than a lot of people do.

His story wasn't incredibly dramatic or anything and some parts of it were things I'd seen in hospital and mentioned in my blogs.

http://www.grandtimes.com/Deathbed.html

Just picked a random link. Guess there might be others in the blogs somewhere as I know I've written about this before.

Evening already?

Time flies .. well it seems to as you get older. When I was young it was quite difficult to understand what older people meant when they said that time seemed to pass faster and faster as you got older.

It doesn't seem to speed up in a way that you experience as feeling different .. you don't experience sensation as if it's speeded up or anything like that .. that all feels the same. It's more like you wonder where the day has gone.

Think one way of putting it is that when you're young you look at the clock and wonder more often .. is it only 11 o'clock but when you're older you wonder is it 11 o'clock already?!!!!

Saturday

I guess I should get on with things again. Obviously didn't do much while I was in St Thomas's .. well, you know!!

Might do a bit of drawing or a bit of language learning.

Have a few things I need to talk to people at St Thomas's about and to my GP .. so I better make notes.

It's lovely outside .. so different from when I went into St Thomas's. While I was there it was nice to see the people cheer up as the sun came out though I was told that it was still quite cold at times .. but Spring is noticeably here now ... at times!!!

Was quite a surprise to go into hospital .. but things had got a bit out of hand. Really didn't expect to be there for all that time though!! Thought it might be for about five days. It was really difficult at times but the nurses and other ward staff were great.

The food?? Well, I didn't get to eat much. Still had to eat as a vegetarian rather than a vegan. Can say that the cheese and plain omelettes were great .. didn't try the porridge but I would think that it was very nice .. used to have a breakfast Weetabix (cold milk and no sugar) .. you were offered one or two. Did miss the Warwick eggy flans though .. the veggie quiches at St Thomas's weren't as soft as Warwick's very yummy eggy flans which were the nearest things to them.

Meds

The district nurse was here yesterday and offered me a hospital bed .. you know one that you can raise the top of so that you don't have to pull yourself up. I sleep sitting up anyway .. so I left it .. or, in hospital jargon .. declined it!!! Am going to have some cushions to make things a bit easier though.

Even after all that time in hospital my meds aren't sorted yet .. still a lot to do .. think I know what I might try next .. or suggest anyway .. I'm not the doc so I'm just going by experience. Not too keen but a very small dose might be worth trying so I'll talk to them about it.

Forgot to ask my GP about the Fortisips though I brought a few back with me. Only seem to have cyclizine here too when I was on two different anti nausea pills in hospital on the day I was discharged. Guess they thought the cyclizine will be enough now. Or, if I need more than one .. was on three at one time .. best to see a doctor.

Makes sense really.

Ploughing through it all

Anyway on to other things because I'm really bored covering the same topic over and over again when there's so much info out there anyway.

Trot through studies and all the things that might be related. Knowing that we know zero about why or how there could be anything here at all. Why is there even a void for there to be any chemicals in? Why is there even a place in existence that can give the possibility of there being nothing?

The concepts are so strange .. even the tiny bit we do know just about the existence of the universe is much stranger than many would've predicted.

My beliefs are just conclusions I've drawn through having a few experiences myself and reading lots of other peoples stories and reading about experiences and possible reasons for them etc., etc. Some'll not be connected ... some will.

I'm interested in finding out what I can and making more possible connections.

It would be easier if I knew more but I'm happy with what I do know I guess.

Anyway Emma's book is back on the shelf so to speak as I've been talking about it for a long time now. I do think it's the best book out there to start off with and to talk seriously about I guess. It sure covers why people don't know much. And there are a lot of stories though a very small minority obviously aren't true. Just idiots trying to mess with her thesis I guess. Doesn't have to hold the possibility of finding new knowledge back though. You just have to accept, that while a lot are obviously true and heartfelt .. there's a very small number that aren't.

The book is interesting too cause it covers experiences without seeming to reflect them. It's interesting how understated so many of them are too. I just know that quite a few people would've wondered if their stories were interesting enough!!

She could've picked up loads of stories anywhere to have covered what she was writing about and in, what I guess, could've been more flamboyant ways. What's the most interesting is she wasn't doing the course to prove this ... more the other way round ... lol!!! So it must've been a lot more work and having to make a rather tiring change to what she was doing. I know the feeling.

It's quite a difficult mind shift to make and very difficult in the middle of studying I should imagine.

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Emma's book has a few stories from well known people too .. another firm point of reference .. there must be lots more on the net too I'd think. It kinda grounds the book.

Always can get a copy from the library and make notes of your favourite bits and make your own kind of reference book up I guess. Soon have your own kind of personal reference book with things you like in it.

Why is there anything at all?????!!!!!!!

As the brain goes eeeekamouse and tries to move on to questions that are easier answered.

A way to do it .. eh.

There've always been lots of ways to find out if people are really interested or not .. just seen something similar going on at a board I read sometimes, though about a different subject.

I also like Emma's book because it's completely unconnected to me .. something that stands by itself. It's good that it mentions people in the media etc too .. because they're a point of reference for other people.

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Oh well ... got quite a lot of response from my friends on that one .. most saying how many of your "interested" readers bothered with Emma's book on the 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th etc time of you mentioning it or took any notice of anything else you wrote on the subject or about Emma.

Well, I had mentioned that you can't really prove anything but Emma's book is the nearest to getting you there plus researching yourself with that as a foundation .. the book's sort of about coincidences too.

And it can be discussed so that people know about it.

Someone said did I think it had made people happier .. said it should have done for people who read word for word what I'd written and used that as a guide line rather than spiralling off into worlds of their own and trying to alter and twist meaning to suit themselves. They'll probably be quite happy, though like me, know there's a way to go yet.

Some will choose not to investigate because they'd prefer it not to be true at this stage in their lives.

Others will not want to believe because it doesn't fit in with their beliefs and they belong to mindsets where only their way of seeing the whole picture is right and everyone who doesn't agree with them is wrong.

Others will let their prejudices get in the way of even considering it.

Etc., etc., etc.

Like the star on the duvet guy and I guess people who find it difficult to see a dividing line between fact and fiction because of mind altering substances. I mean most things are going to be altered by a few pints of cider etc.

Etc., etc., etc.

And some people won't consider it because to them anything like that doesn't fit in with their way of thinking because they feel that it isn't in a scientific mode even though there might be other things they will accept saying that it's a theory that just needs proving.

Others get so into proving that anything along these lines isn't true that they just kinda filter out anything that suggests it could be.

Etc., etc., etc.

So the number of uninterested people would be quite high.

Keep on truckin'

Hospital isn't the best of places at times .. though I do know another drug that I'm allergic to. Just popping on here for a minute or to as a bit of encouragement for my friends who I don't email and for people who've followed the blog and, if they've taken ANY notice at all of what I said before will now know where I'm coming from, and, will know as much as I do .. through having read Emma's book and books on coincidences .. extended or not .. the only difference being whether they've experienced similar things and gone on to investigate for themselves.

As I explained before and Emma's book does too by giving so many examples .. this seems to be a subject where proof is personal .. but her book is full of accounts by people telling their stories .. it's the best place to start I reckon and then go on to study other facets .. no one can really prove anything to anyone else .. dunno why it works that way .. but you only have to read that book to realise that's the way it is .. and to see how personalised the experiences are to the individual.

I was going to read another of her books but it seems likely that the person selling decided she didn't want to part with it after all when she had a closer look and I left it at that. I have one book that has satisfied me on the subject.

I do wonder why the experiences are so personalised and that no proof comes down .. such as ectoplasm or something like that which would really give proof .. the experiences are personalised to such an amazing extent aren't they that they seem like a personal connection between "spirit" or whatever term you use for the possibility to occur, and the individual and their close friends who know whether they can be sure about it all. One of the reasons I think Emma's book is brilliant because it was part of a uni study with loads of people writing in .. a few doing a piss take but most honest.

I also realised that any honest book on the subject is probably only going to be read seriously by people who are interested through their own experiences and those who have a genuine interest in it all and are exploring and trying to make their own minds up.

I don't know .. but I should imagine that most people who are genuinely interested usually have experiences somewhere along the way that make them think and wonder.

Emma is wonderful!!!

Someone once said to me .. she's passed over now .. from cancer .. and I only knew her on the net .. that she reckoned that only about 5% of people would bother to search and all that might entail .. it's hard work for something you feel sure about but which isn't tangible in the same way as our surroundings are on the Earth .. can't quite remember her exact wording or really all that the 5% covered. I thought it would be more .. say 25%.

I feel quite sure that there's something else .. but don't understand it .. all I can do is to encourage people who do have a genuine interest in the subject, as I do myself, to carry on reading .. and, as I'm just one fallible human being .. the best way to potter along the path is a selection of stories from people who don't know each other who, mostly, just tried to help someone with their studies and investigations into the subject .. thinking that would be all they were doing .. and then discovering that other people had similar stories to tell.

At the moment I'm quite interested in the personalization of experiences and the different ways this could be experienced .. if at all ofcourse.