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Oh and just remembered another story that could've been in Emma's book that was a piss take too .. added it in the post before last. I don't read the whole book any more just here and there by opening on any page and couldn't remember if it was in her book or not. Will ask or have a look. Anyway, if it is .. that sounds like someone having a laugh too. Most stories seemed believable to me from my experience and from the experiences of those I trust .. which is the best way of measuring things here. Some seem out of that criteria and there seems to be other things round them that made me feel they were dodgy without that too .. having read lots of things where people haven't been telling the truth. Others I wasn't sure about but had to admit that they easily fitted into my criteria.

Hopefully, the end of April then but if my health doesn't improve then I think I'll leave it.

Will be back at the end of April ... hopefully feeling better with the new treatment though if I'm still like this .. or going in and out of this kind of condition the blogs will have to end. Think, in reality, maybe I should have left them once I realised that I was always going to be in quite a bit of pain.

But, hey .. too late now!!

If you are interested in what I've written about, as I've said, there are plenty of kosher people out there .. and you'll find out a lot more than just reading this.

If you have been interested then most should've had upwards of a year and more to read and research and probably know things that I don't ... lol!!!

If you haven't been then you should be reading something that does interest you rather than reading here otherwise you're just wasting your time so probably aren't here anyway.

Anyway .. am going to delete my links here now.

And will be off the net soon for a while.

End of April.

Be careful though

Just to say that I am feeling a bit better .. might try a little walk at the weekend all things being good. I don't like having to stay in .. and I can go out when this extra pain has gone. Though my tummy is gurgling like crazy. Won't be writing anything here though .. that is finished for a couple of months so that I can get on with the things I should have been before, I wasn't doing them before mainly because a lot of my non drowsy time or time when I didn't feel too bad was spent doing this. I'm a bit of a tortoise these days.

I'm much too ill to do much and from now I'm going to have to be careful with my time. Hopefully things will start to improve with this new treatment .. in two weeks time. My head's quite whoozy too at the moment .. probably a good thing with the pain.

Doubt if it'll be the end of the blogs all together.

There are trillions of blogs on the net ... lots really good .. on every subject I've covered .. if you like blogs .. and plenty of web sites as well that cover then all too. I've covered all that before so there should be something back there. With climate change you really just have to turf the known facts out and go on from there.

Be careful of sites that make unusual blanket statements .. like an article that I was reading today that stated that all people who support the technical global warming theory don't accept that there are any natural causes involved. Think I put up a diagram the other day that included all known possibilities. Also sites that use mockery instead of discussion to make a point.

On the esoteric side it's a bit more difficult .. but anything that isn't too way out that kinda fits in with what Emma wrote about and most of the letters her book covered are OK. It's a difficult subject and I don't want to get things wrong here .. well, I know it's unavoidable .. I'm only human .. but you know what I mean. Don't want to send anyone off on a wild goose chase for one thing and all that entails I know how disheartening it can be when you come across books like that NDE one with all the prophecies. Someone on Amazon said that it had totally undermined his belief after reading it. It left me in shock for about a month. Also don't want to waste your time. I can't remember if it was in Emma's book too .. but there was a betting story in one I read that didn't sound at all kosher to me either. Someone else having a laugh,


Feeling whoozy and the pain's coming back more again so will leave it there.

And

And just before I go .. am going to study/work .. don't think I'll be needing the hospices services quite yet .. though I'm very grateful that I got to know them through working for them on a voluntary basis for a while as a thankyou for looking after a good friend and neighbour of mine here. Might write about that too .. or dictate/write. Best I concentrate on things like that.

Blogs are fun but they don't really achieve much because things are often so much more complicated than a blog can go into. Usually they just give out pieces of info .. a bit like talking about Creative Commons music and pointing the way to a few net labels .. and one or two bits of music the person writing likes .. but, really, the reader then has to go through the catalogues to find what s/he wants if s/he's interested.

I'm very glad that I'm not young in this world. At the hospital yesterday I leafed through some women's magazines to find the hairstyle articles were often about having the same hairstyles as people in the public eye .. and the clothes .... the same!!!! I thought ... what pressure. It never occurred to me to even think about that when I was young. What surprised me more though was that nearly everyone in the public eye was referred to as a celebrity .. not as an actor or whatever job it is they do for a living .. to the extent that if I didn't know what work they do they could be doing which could be anything from designing clothes to working as an MP. It was like sailing the seas without a compass .. and felt very strange.

Don't know if I'll be up and out much for the next few days .. have to see how it goes. I have sneezed .. so the inflamed stomach is on the right track .. though I'm pretty certain it's a bit more than that. I did mention it and said what I thought was contributing to it yesterday .. been there once before ... but I think I'm going to have to get back in touch as nothing was said about treatment. But a series of tests are going to be done .. it might be included. They had to do another biopsy too.

Today has not been good at all but shall see how it goes. I'll be very glad when they start the new treatment. Will phone up tomorrow anyway.

........

And people I've got a contact addy for who I know either Sue or I'll e mail you as I said before but over the next couple of months now.

Au revoir maar niet ma'a salama

Actually, thinking about it I might leave the blogs for a while anyway even when I'm over this because I tend to write them rather than anything else when I have other things I should be doing. Say, two months or so.

Was going to write a bit more about climate change and the various aspects that might or might not be affecting it .. but they're all easily lookable up on the net.

Think the last bit of info to hit the news was this

http://www.foxnews.com/scitech/2010/01/11/years-global-cooling-coming-say-leading-scientists/

which is what I was going to go on to next to include with the sunspot possibility.

Appears there are a number of factors that could be cooling the planet at the moment. Research and time will tell.

It's the third cooling that has been predicted recently that I can remember and I haven't been paying that much attention to it all really. There might've been another variation on the theme too.

Anyway I think I take my sabbatical leaving plenty of links and info about the things I've been discussing for those that are interested.

More rest

Looks like I'm going to have to just rest for a few days .. might have an inflamed tummy again which means not much typing etc .. thought it might and just literally resting. Think I'll give her my pooter to see if she can give it a bit of a tune up too so won't be on line .. see how I feel. Give her me password too so she can tidy things up a bit as well for me .. might go a bit faster then I guess .. lol!!! It is slowly getting slower and slower.

I think lots of people are composing music to tell a story while I'd just like to listen to something relaxing, As the story builds the highs and lows are reflected in the tempo and people like musictomy years happily sit there interpreting every bar as the notes spell out a story while I just want something to drift away on.



Think I have a bad cold and it's making me feel very out of sorts. Will get in touch with a friend for now who knows a bit about my illness and talk it over. Maybe best if they'll come over and sort things out.

Different

obviously not to the person who composed the music.I would like some very mellow music to listen to at the moment but most of the new things I've listened to that sound hopeful start off quietly .. then the beats double .. then ... etc ... bounce ... bounce ... bounce ... bounce.

Though this one did go back the other way for a few seconds ... doesn't sound promising ... lol!!! I'm listening to another space album .. if there's anybody out there .. this is just to let you know you are not alone .. etc.

It's very discordant and mechanical and not what I expected at all with it's clinking and clanking .. reminds me more of a traffic jam but obviously not to the person who composed the music.

.................

Yes, I will, if things don't feel any better .. see how the day goes. I did mention it yesterday but something came to light that showed that it's best to get in touch if you're not sure about things .. so I'll give her a call if needs be over the next few days.

Am feeling a bit better than I was but will see how it goes. Might just rest and get someone to send emails over the next few days if I'm not feeling too good though.

Might not ... see how it goes.

???

Not quite sure what to do .. same old problem .. know I'm not going to be able to sleep. Perhaps I should do a bit of research on the net so I know I'm not bothering them for something that can wait .. but, from something that was said today, I don't think they're going to think that.

Perhaps I'll try and rest but I'm not going to be able to sleep.

music

Heard the last song from the lunchtime concert at the hospital. First time I've heard any of the music from one though .. would have been nice if I could have heard more. That was four guys singing. but, later on when passing I heard a young woman playing the piano. The second time I thought that it was taped music but then I saw her playing. It's very nice to have the music being played. Perhaps I'll get to hear more one day. It's a lovely idea to have music being played at the hospital though. This was at Guys. I don't know if any other hospitals do the same.

For now will just listen to something off Jamendo and drink a couple of protein drinks.

Back again

Four and a half hours today .. but it's settled .. I'm going to have the other treatment though I've got to reduce one of my meds for a couple of weeks first. Got a couple of other things to help as well. Got one more thing I'm going to have to get moving too now. The doc I saw yesterday was very good and got the ball rolling for today. I know a bit more and I think that I'll phone my nurse whenever I feel something is really up .. give this other problem til Friday morning. I did mention it today but, if nothing's improved by Friday morning, think I'll have to give her a call. I'm not used to having an assigned nurse or anything like that so it's quite difficult to get used to the idea that if something feels as if it's getting worse I can phone her.

hospital

Back to hospital today and more talk about my treatment. It's going to change as what I'm on at the moment isn't working that well really and there are other options. I was told if ever I thought I needed to just to turn up at the hospital .. I was just about to phone my assigned nurse anyway because I hadn't realised that this appointment was an over view. Well, as far as I knew it wasn't so guess something had changed.

When I was at that clinic last the consultant I saw booked me in for an early appointment and, as far as I knew it was just to see how I was getting on with some medication but when I got there things were quite different from what I was expecting.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Quite a busy day .. so rather sleepy this evening. Went to the docs and Clapham this morning then to the hospital in the afternoon .. not much space to do anything else but rest really.

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There seems to be so much therapy around. I won't be trying the tuning forks .. though aligning the body would be very nice. Didn't know whether to laugh or cry after reading what the person said about them realigning her body straight away. Well, it didn't happen here. Fortunately I read that after playing the sample. Guess, if it had been the other way round, there might've been a bit of hope, even if it was just a subconscious flicker. Even though I'd've known that, in reality, it just wasn't going to happen.

All I appeared to get from it was a slightly sore head after playing it for too long. Wasn't grouchy in the morning though. Oh, maybe I was, slightly, for about five minutes when I had trouble finding something, but that soon passed. One of me longer periods of grouchyism I guess. Well, since being back I've totalled up two of those and a ten to fifteen minute one .. all for the same reason and really my fault .. should keep things in a folder.

I gave my friend the spare copy I had of Emma's book .. which he stayed up reading last night. It's not something he's really had all that much interest in and my being ill has upset him a lot so it's not something I've talked about that much, Didn't quite know how to bring it up really though he knew that I had an interest though did mention the subject a bit.

He loves the book. Should've mentioned it before maybe. I am so glad The Works had it in as a bargain book .. think there was a new edition coming out or something with a different preface. Anyway, now I know for sure that it's a helpful book I'm really ok with it.

I said to him .. all it must be a bit of science that we've just not caught up with. Quantum mechanics sort of shows that but. in other ways it's pulled a screen down again because some scientists, yet again, as had happened periodically in history, think that it means they'll soon know everything. Well, in the past they have thought that they do know everything there is to know .. now some think that they are about to ... but they don't really think around the box so to speak they just pull the blind down as far as any more thinking goes.

I wish that I could get into poetry a bit better. I'll try again. I know his poetry comes from the heart so it's gonna be a good place to start.



Got quite a number of things that I've got to sort out .. one my ISP home page reminded me of this morning which I really should get round to doing, Something else that was talked about .. but on the phone .. the guy went through some pretty intensive training when he was young which he absolutely loathed at the time, I mean really. As time's gone on though he's been really grateful as he says it's given him motivation which helps him get through even when times are really tough. I was surprised when he told me about the regime as I hadn't realised it was quite that hard.

Sunday

Time flies .. can it be half ten already? Well ... um, yes!! Woke up thinking of the video, There is an all paths concept to it.

I went to the guy's site and clicked on the video not realizing that it's title had gone off screen and what was written below it was about another video. Thought it was going to be an excerpt from a festival.

I've always found poetry, on it's own, a bit difficult to get into. It's a different way of painting word pictures I guess .. there's a crossover between song lyrics and poetry though but I do find a lot of poetry difficult. Though I know people who write it and find them easy to talk to ... well, obviously .. lol!!!

I have to say that I'm not religious but I think everyone's in the same boat and, as I believe, in life after death, believe, that it doesn't make any difference what religion you might have chosen because you still have to make choices in what you do everyday just like everyone and it's what you do and say that is important not whether you think what might be beyond, if you think there's anything, centres around a god or gods and goddesses.

I understand his youthful angst but I look at history this way .. it was a fluke that American history produced a colour divide in the way it did .. people all over the world were fighting amongst themselves, including Europeans.

He seems to like the "feminine" though as I haven't read any of his books or spoken to him I'm not quite sure what he means by that exactly. I think he sees the feminine as nurturing and he thinks that everyone should be that way inclined.

I do like that song though .. wasn't quite sure what the game ending bit was about but, thinking what I do, it made me smile. And I liked the peaceful unity that came through it.

Yesterday was a day of talking about people born on that day as I used to have a friend born the same day as me too but she got involved with hard drugs and died young. She'd come up in conversation a bit earlier in the day. Lovely woman .. so sad. Do wish it hadn't happened.

Quite a few people I know write poetry .. well, in an expanding circle .. some of us "kinda know" each other because the people we know tell them what's going on in my life and I get to know how they're getting on too .. including the guys I spoke to yesterday.

Maybe I'll try and read a book of his poetry ... but I do find poetry difficult to get into.

Saturday2

Difficult to talk on the phone when the telly's on ..lol!! Sometimes it's difficult to tell what's what at both ends and you can find the person on the other end answering something off the telly ... lol!!!!

Person must've had a similar voice to me cause he did it twice ... quite surreal!!!!!

Talk about going back in time. He came to visit me here twice, once in the 70s and again in the 80s and lost the tiny teddy that was his mascot one of the times down the pub. Bod the bear!!!!! Hope I'm soon well enough to get round a bit more. I've said I'll try when the weather's a bit warmer, People say that nowhere's very far ... well, maybe when I can sit out in the garden for a while. Too tired to really pull it off at the moment. It's difficult even if I am just up the road .. ages since I've been to the pub though I did used to .. but then ain't now. We'll see what this new treatment brings anyway ... well, seems they're gonna try a few things .. both for the pain and both conditions . We'll see.

Good stuff though .. he'll be starting some treatment soon which hopefully will be successful. Years go on but the politics don't really change.

And, why does everyone .. well, exaggeration, but so many people seem to have lived here at some time. Someone else was rapping on about meeting Benjamin Zephaniah here .. he's a vegan poet.

These poets, huh!!

Seems I was born on the same day as Mutabaruka (vegan poet etc) who I'd never heard of before this evening.

Beautiful video



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y_WOqU9stCE



A friend came to call for a couple of hours

Ooooowwtt

Went over to Tesco .. wasn't too bad a walk over .. I mean it's relative .. but it was relatively alright!!!!!! Coming back was more difficult .. muscles gave me a bit of extra jip. Glad I went over anyway. I'd been dithering all afternoon, well, all day really. Guess I should've gone earlier as people said it was a lovely day but by the time I set out the sun had gone in. Must've been a nice day if the only real difference was that the sun had gone in cause it was still pleasant.

Saturday

Changed the "this" blog to "a" blog as I didn't put the link up. Was going to but really there wasn't much point. Don't know if she'd got disillusioned with the trek through the New Age but, for some reason or other, after a post about trying to help her son's condition through some therapy and saying that she'd be back to let us know how it went, she didn't write anymore. That was almost a year ago.

Someone had mentioned the tuning forks to me because someone else is interested in them but after finding that music through the blog think I'll give it a miss I don't resonate with them well. Thought that before reading about the multitasking dolphins sticking their snouts in your ears and licking them while telling you the secrets of the ancient world.

I haven't listened to any of his free downloads for guided meditation ... ah .. one has just started to play on Quicktime .. "you can feel the sun and welcome the cool of the evening"

It would've been nice if it had been wonderfully relaxing etc ... but, for me, it wasn't.

Dolphin snouts in your ears

Have been too tired to do much myself really lately .. am almost dozing off again now, I just sleep when I can. Am going to get in touch with my assigned nurse about it all next week. Just sorting things out again. Have started today.

Stayed in today as I have got a bit of a bug which is affecting my tummy so better to stay in and rest.

Do not know quite what to make of this. Found some "healing" sounds that I hadn't heard of before through a blog.

Have to say that she doesn't really give them the thumbs up as she said she woke up in a bad mood the morning after trying them .. though her "coach" had told her that if something like this happened she might just "have hit a chord that her soul needs to overcome." I wasn't sure if the chord was a play on words or not!!!! But, anyway, thought I'd try it out as free downloads are offered and apparently, this stuff can be expensive and I thought, if people are willing to pay for it and you can try it out first maybe it does have something going for it.

I have just turned the second track off .. maybe it's my cold but I had a bit of trouble getting into it and I really, really don't think it's for me .. we shall see how I feel tomorrow ... lol!!! But my feeling is it sounds shrill and discordant and maybe that's what all my poor brain feels too .. headache city. Kinda the opposite of meditation. There is no way I'm going to start imagining them because the actual sounds are too shrill. I'm afraid, with something like this, I'm a bit turned off by the "when the time is right you'll be drawn back to the tuning" too.

http://www.biosonics.com/-strse-template/downloads_tuning/Page.bok

Oh dear

I clicked on Research .. now, what would you expect to find here

This?

http://www.biosonics.com/-strse-template/article_10/Page.bok

Dolphins

" You feel their dolphin snouts in your ears as the dolphin on your left side sticks her dolphin tongue into your ear and begins licking while at the same time the dolphin on the right side sticks his dolphin tongue into your right ear and begins licking.

Listen

as they tell you in dolphin language that they are from Delphi, the navel of our plant Earth. They are special messengers. They have access to the lost city of Atlantis and its vast libraries of knowledge and the Oracle of Delphi. They can swim deep into your unconsciousness through the ventricles of your brain, down your spinal column to your sacrum and back up into your "minds eye" and bring ancient knowledge"

I thought not.

Think I'll go and find something else to listen to.

Friday

Oh, yeah .. and I forgot to mention .. the story about the star on the duvet just isn't true!!!! Someone was messing around. Emma was still rather starry eyed when she compiled this book of letters. She just asked people to write in when she was studying the subject at university.

If some people can't read, and I know some people have difficulty .. sometimes because it's harder for them to see that words can be split into little segments and the sounds from these segments can be put together to form words .. and you're interested .. firstly, they must know people who can read .. who can tell them the best bits from the book etc. Not quite the same as reading it but it's getting there.

My friend, who I mentioned a while back, who couldn't read, is getting on quite well. He did have a small word recognition before he started learning again, but not much, and he's enjoying himself learning now.

Still, if he hadn't learnt, guess, someone would've discussed it all with him just in general conversation.

Been in touch with the hospital but have still some more to do. More or less sorted out now though.

And .........

And. by the way, my advice still is, if anyone's interested in the possibility of there being life after death my advice is still exactly the same. Either read Emma's book .. buy a copy, share one if you want to, get it from the library .. discuss it. Or research her on the net and read what you can about the book and anything about that subject.

Then research other things connected to it.

Not things like seances .. however exciting they may seem .. it's not about excitement .. and, anyway they've discovered, through experimentation, that seances are the work of your mind and nothing else .. lol!!! If I remember rightly seances only make sense if people can see the letters .. turn the light out or if everyone wears sleep masks and you just get a jumble of mixed up letters. Well, as long as no-one knows what and where the letters are to begin with and as long as it's well regulated and there is actually no chance what so ever that someone can see through or around the sleep mask. Think I wrote about that before but I guess I might as well mention it again.

It would be nice if things were that simple.

Keep a diary and record anything that you think is interesting.

Clear your mind. If you play games it makes it much harder to distinguish what's right from what isn't because you have to unravel the web so to speak. Oh what a tangled web we weave etc. Be open minded otherwise you're gonna end up consciously subconsciously frantically trying to disprove everything.

Don't expect everything to come from one source and don't expect it to be that simple ... if it was then I wouldn't still be reading anything about it. It would be different if you could point at A and say A is this or that and it would be easy to see and understand why. Unfortunately it's not that simple ..... at all

An answer soon??

I suppose the next thing to do is to follow the sunspots month by month .. and I would but I think that there;s a good chance that the next couple of years might give a good idea if the connection between the sun and it's storms and flares and winds and spots and the Earth have anything to do with climate change, and, if so, does it matter much and if it does .. what is it doing.

Guess it could be looking a lot clearer soon.

Everyone was expecting lots and lots of solar activity over the past few years and 2012 was on some astronomer's calenders .. not because of Aztec predictions but because people had expected spectacular sunspot spotting but it's not really been moving on along those lines and, in fact, decided not to do much at all ... a bit of a go slow going on,

So, I guess we should get more of an idea over the next couple of years.

Sunspots etc

I suppose, whatever, it'll be sorted out soon. I mean, the reality.. Let's just hope for a good outcome, On both subjects there is work being done all over the world and, I guess, eventually, the truth will out

Still rather sleepy though have been resting for much of the afternoon/evening.

Was amazed at the amount of medical facilities there are here .. various clinics as well as the hospitals. I'm being refered to some of the local clinics now too. Not sure what difference it can or will make. but we shall see. I'm not really sure what can be done. Other people are more optimistic than me so we shall see.

The yearly sunspot numbers .. collected by the same method are .. sorry J for taking them down before u saw them ... plus added 10 years earlier too!!!! I've checked them out and there was one biggish typo which I've corrected. Didn't make any difference to the overall result though .. still went in the same direction so still rather amazed. Some people seem to do what they want with the results regardless of what the numbers show

1966 - 1975 ... 47, 94, 106, 106, 108, 67, 69, 39, 35, 16

1976 - 1985 ... 13, 28, 93, 155, 155, 140, 118, 67, 46,18

1986 - 1995 ... 14, 19, 100, 158, 143, 146, 94, 58, 30, 18

1996 - 2005 ... 9, 22, 64, 93, 120, 111, 104, 64, 40, 30

2006, 2007 .. 15, 8

Wednesday

Well, day didn't go quite as I thought it would. Off to docs in the morning then over to Tesco .. didn't go to Clapham as wasn't feeling that great and wasn't going to push it.

Then dozed for most of the day. I've got a bit of a tummy upset and thought it best just to rest. I sneezed yesterday and whether it's that affecting my muscles or the bug itself making me feel poorly I've no idea. I was told at the docs that there's a stomach bug going round so it could be either or both. It's not the norro virus but something similar though probably a bit milder I'd guess.

I don't feel sick .. just rather sore so I guess it's probably the sneeze along with feeling a bit lousy with the bug. Haven't eaten much for the last three of days so think I might ask the doc to prescribe some Fortesip for a couple of weeks.

Will add up me spots later!!!!!!

Think the rest of the day might be musical and sleepy.

Off on another trek

I'll put my sunspot post up again soon. I just want to check a few things out about the number of sunspots at the beginning and end of each cycle. I don't think it'll make any difference .. but there's a chance .. AND .. I also want to check the number of sunspots .. I changed them slightly last night because there'd been a small misprint on a page .. by 1!! But, you never know .. might be worth having a look round!!!

I just have trouble believing that's right.

My mind is in such a spin this morning cause of what I read last night .. well, for the past few weeks to be honest .. but, last night just took the biscuit so to speak.

Another morning dun gone!

Dun

Well, I've written what I could remember back in. Fortunately quite a bit of what I'd lost were net addresses and they weren't too hard to find and put back!!! I know there's a bit missing but it doesn't really matter to make sense of it all.

Reminder .. donut talk wiv ur finger on the delete button.

Going backwards

It used to amaze me, as a young person interested in science, that people would say things like "cigarettes are good for you" just because they were employed by a tobacco firm to do so .. but that was how it was. My dad told me. that when he was young, people were sold cigarettes and told that they were good for your health, and that's why he started smoking

I find it hard to believe that in those days they hadn't noticed what tar did to the lungs and wondered if it was healthy ... or not.

Ofcourse these were just a few maverick scientists.

I do believe that with climate change .. some who tampered with the figures etc will actually have believed that they were doing the right thing .. and making people take note of what they believe is happening. They thought if they upped things a bit that it would make people sit up and do something about it.

I find it hard to understand the guy who contradicted himself with the carbon not causing climate change then going on to say that it's best to keep all the carbon coming cause it would protect the planet against the effects of an ice age!!!! Shudder rather than shiver!!!

Either playing games and forgot himself for a minute or doesn't understand science at all. Well, he had to understand what he was talking about in that respect because he'd just attended a meeting about it all and that is pretty basic.

I was told as a young person that, for some people, all that matters is getting a paper accepted etc .. and, yes, people are occasionally caught changing figures and results.

Same with the "is there life after death or not" bunch. One skeptics organisation had to close down because one prominent member disliked the methods his colleques were using to disprove the possibilty there might be ... because of dirty tactics.

All doing things like that does is stop knowledge growing. But there have always been a few who want to stop that too.

This or that?

Yeah, well, basically, whether they have ulterior motives or are just mistaken, one group of people are saying that the warming/cooling is a result of natural cycles and the other group is saying that it's down to industrialization.

The it's a natural cycle argument can be used both ways though .. one to say that because the earth has heated and cooled in the past the present temperatures are just more of the same.

The natural heating argument can be used both ways either to say that, yes, the planet is being heated by industrialization but because we are in a period similar to one in history, which has been shown before to be cooler at the time when the sun's activity is very low and that you'd expect to see a slow up in the general trend of heating and that is what's happening now.

Or, to say, that the earth is just going through one of many cycles of warming and cooling and that they're always going to happen .. and that's what's happening now and that natural phenomena are causing everything that's happening.


I said in me first blog that there are going to be lots of surprises along the way as far as climate change went, I meant planetwise, and that I thought that any we'd had so far were small compared to what was to come. Well, the surprises have been rolling in thick and fast .. though, things have kept in line with the climate models in other ways.

I guess all that's happened lately will lead to better controls .. though, maybe the planet, will be producing data that will fit into the climate change models in the next couple of years which will give a very good idea of what's happening and what is the cause.

Climategate

Reading about the planet is interesting .. the climate change debate reminds me a lot of the are cigarettes bad for your health debate when I was young when "scientists" employed by tobacco companies would "prove" that either they weren't bad or were actually good for you.

I guess part of the equation now is for some people this is all about competition .... i.e .. they'll say anything, regardless of facts, to come out on top, then .. for others .. their job might depend on their research so they're over pushing certain facts, or, they hold a grudge or prejudice or a political view that aligns them more with one view than another, and, of course, along with job stability, that job and their research unit might be funded by big business .. such as businesses paying for carbon limiting devices to be invented or, on the other hand, trying to prove that global warming is totally natural.

Things, when just reading the facts, wouldn't occur to you ... you'd think that sorting this out would be more important really. But there you go.

Which ever way it goes, there could still be a need for people with their skills and expertise .. you only have to look at the two poles to realise that human intervention could still be needed, whatever the cause. The cooler temperatures slowed this down a bit last year .. but, as mentioned, we're just gonna have to see what's going to happen in the next few years .. it's still way off what the "norm" would be.

A small article on the history of sunspot observation and their possible effect on the planet

http://solarscience.msfc.nasa.gov/SunspotCycle.shtml

That is what is known to have happened

What is going to happen is up for grabs .. the predictions, as you will know by now how ever little interest you may have in the subject, have varied from sunspots may vanish by 2015 to they'll peak in 2012 in a very active cycle.

I guess, one way or another. it should become more obvious just what the connection is or is not.

music

Liked this music and the band are giving it away for free for now

http://www.ilike.com/artist/Dead+Heart+Bloom

http://www.deadheartbloom.com/html/index2.htm

It took a couple of listens, because even though there's a sort of retro feel to it it's also quite a new sound for me, and then I fell in love with it

Followed by this

Another one that took a couple of listens to get in to

Robin Grey

http://www.jamendo.com/en/album/56451

First song is kinda linked on with the short I watched down at the surgery. Seems to be the subject/song of the day because I heard the same song sung by someone else earlier in the afternoon,

Walking

I stopped a lot walking back today. just rested every so often. It was better than it's been foe a while. Ususally I stop because I have to because my breathing rate is making walking difficult .. and it can get uncomfortable too. But I didn't feel too bad when I stopped today for most of the time.

Don't get me wrong .. walking is still difficult but today was a whole lot better for most of the time .. the last 5 mins or so wasn't as my breathing kept on speeding up and trying to push out my muscles further than they wanted to go.

Tuesday

Well, feeling a bit better in one way than I have been for the last week or two .. would be nice if other things could be so easily sorted out!!!

Did go to the docs this morning .. and yesterday. Just did Tesco today .. knew that it was probably best not to head for Clapham today .. not just because of the weather but didn't think that the walk would be that easy .. and I was right. Knew as I was coming back that a longer walk wouldn't've been too good an idea. Most of the walk back was fine .. it was more or less a reverse of my last walk back on a drizzly day. This time I was reasonably ok and the drizzle held off .. then when I was nearer home it started raining uncomfortably and my muscles started giving me a fair amount of jip

The topics on the monitor at the docs were quite interesting today .. they included a short about how the media edit the photos of models you see in the magazines. At the end they had this picture of a model with a tiny, tiny waist and they showed that with the bit of her waist that had been edited out expanding in and out and in and out of the photo,

And they also had a short film about babies and their reaction to classical music. I haven't heard this before but apparently there's an idea going round, referred to as hype in the film, that listening to classical music will make a baby more intelligent. From what was being said I guess it's been recommended that you play the baby classical music before he or she is born too.

One woman did say that she used to play one particular song to their baby before she was born and that the baby reacted to the song after she'd been born and obviously recognised it.

Different music, has appeared to have different affects on people and plants in experiments

This page, suggests though, that, there's no conclusive proof that it does make any long term difference which is what the film said too.

There have been experiments that show that different music does have differing effects on plants if it's played to them non stop for a lengthy period of time.

Mentioned it before, This page covers things like that

http://www.cerebromente.org.br/n15/mente/musica.html

I've just scanned it but if there's anything that interests you there guess you can always Google and find out the complete story behind what the guy's written. Might come back and read it myself ... might not. I know what I need to at the moment and I've written about it before .. but this page might go further into it for people who are interested and want a point of reference.

I was asked if there were any really good sites to follow the sun .. so to speak. This one looks interesting because of the pictures that are put up.

http://solarcycle24.com/index2.htm

I expect it's going to be in and out of the news though as it has been for the past two or three years. It's been here quite a while and it's not a story that's going to go away just now I guess. I sometimes write about it when it appears in the news or something relative to it does .. sometimes other related topics, It's more or less what I started writing about with my first blog.

My attitude is that it's best to be cautious. Overall the data problem is a pain .. but surely it can be sorted out. There have been enough people working on different projects over the years for it all to be put back together again bit by bit I'd've thought even if it has been lost in umpteen piles and piles of paperwork at source. There must be other paperwork/discs/computers that it can be sorted out from.

Solar flares and the Northern Lights and sunspots

The climate change arguments roll out one after another.

Different factors of climate change

http://www.physicalgeography.net/fundamentals/7y.html


The latest did remind me of what the skeptics had got wrong, in the talk I'd written about before, but didn't go back to re-read. What they said was that there was no need to reduce carbon emissions etc because we're heading for a mini ice age and during that time we'll be grateful for the extra heat that's being provided because of them.

They're referring to a mini ice age shown in a change in universal conditions such as sunspot activity not one caused by changing sea currents that have changed direction through changes in the ecosystems brought on by climate change.

Strange, I thought, cause just a page or so ago you were saying that global warming wasn't caused by carbon emissions or anything else to do with human activity and now you're saying not to reduce carbon emissions because they'll keep the planet nice and cozy and snug in this mini ice age!!!

Yer can't have it both ways. Either carbon emissions are heating the planet up or not .. the chemicals don't suddenly think .. Oh wow.. mini ice age looming, let's thermalize and cozy the planet up.

Is an ice age looming mini or not?

Who knows?

There are, ofcourse, differing opinions. One of these differences is around how much sun spots affect the Earth's temperatures. Some people say that the difference in the temperature changes given off by the Sun at times of high sun spot activity and low sun spot activity isn't really great enough to have that big an effect on the planet. This guy thinks it does.

http://www.tgdaily.com/general-sciences-features/42006-harvard-astrophysicist-sunspot-activity-correlates-to-global-climate .

And though it has slowed down there are signs that solar activity might be on the increase again

http://science.nasa.gov/headlines/y2009/03sep_sunspots.htm

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/sci/tech/8008473.stm


http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/scotland/highlands_and_islands/8510377.stm

And sunspot activity

Cycle 24


presenting sunspots 1045, 1946 and 1047

http://otherworldyencounters.wordpress.com/2010/02/09/sunspot-number-701045-711046-72-1047-are-alive-cooking/

Not forgetting

http://www.spaceweather.com/

Sunspot 1048




We shall just have to wait and see what happens

Sunday

Found a nice list of things to read yesterday but my Google search didn't completely load or something and now I've no idea what I typed into Google to find it ... lol!!! Just one of those on the spur of the moment things and the page I clicked is such a varied list of links that it doesn;t really help either. Still, too tired to really read them at the moment so guess it doesn't matter.



A moments thought vanished into the ether. No, been back and re-checked ... not there. Don't know why I'm moaning really though as I don't feel like reading what it did turn up ... however interesting I find it. Will, get round to it eventually and I expect what I do read will give me enough ideas for umpteen google searches!!!

Haven't been out today .. too sleepy and I'm not sure about my muscles.



Just left something I was part of cause I was doing too much ... they've said to look in again soon and things will've changed ... but don't really think it was for me anyway.

Off to get a little to eat now.

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Did go out but it wasn't an easy walk back .. not because of the drizzle but because of my muscles .. eased off in the home straight so to speak so I guess the walk did me good .. pain and difficulty eased off just as the drizzle did too. Didn't check to see if it stayed dry for any length of time after I got back. Did debate whether to wait or not to see if it cleared up but decided to head back as the drizzle was so light and, if really started to rain ... well, there're plenty of places to shelter for a while. Suppose it didn't really matter. Don't think the pain and discomfort would have cleared up any earlier if I'd just been standing about,

Too tired to do much at the moment really .. shame cause the net is a never ending source of information whatever you're researching. The nice thing too is that a single page of reading can open so many doors that are instantly accessible through Google etc and because there's so much you can explore and cross reference you can start to build bigger but easier to understand pictures.

Saturday

Well, have been sleeping more .. but in bits .. which means I sleep for around two hours, wake up and, then, later, sleep for another hour or two. It's better than sleeping 2 to 4 hours or something like that but not as good as getting a full run of 6 to 8 hours sleep. And, I often seem to be vaguely in the process of waking up or going back to sleep which seems to mean I feel quite sleepy a lot of the time.

But, guess I shouldn't complain. Overall it's better than it was at the moment.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Only joking. I've been awake since about 6 this morning though I have dozed a bit .. well, don't know if you'd really call it dozing. but sitting here with my eyes shut and feeling too sleepy to do anything more til I've rested a while .. maybe resting and deep relaxation rather than dozing today so far.

Still a little wintry here but no snow or sleet forecast for today.

Friday morning

Back to get some more rest .. fell asleep this evening again!!! lol!!! Must try and get this sorted out .. looks round for LOUD alarm clock to stick by me in the evenings .. and, well, maybe in the afternoons too!!!

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Well, solved the not meditating by clicking play here

http://phlow-magazine.com/mp3-music-download/ambient/1406-slow-dual-box-resting-bell

And I kind of aaahhed and sighed into relaxation.

Tuesday

Stayed up late last night because I was trying to get something sorted out for a friend rather than because I wasn't feeling like sleeping. Was quite tired and might've been able to fall asleep, though I don't know.

Then this morning after I got up remembered that she had to leave earlier for work today and wouldn't be logging on to read what I'd written til later this afternoon. Still meant that I didn't need to sort it out this morning I guess.

Haven't meditated for the last two days again. I just get into doing other things and don't get round to doing it.

Tuesday

Quiet day .. just resting really.

........... afternoon

Anyway, most music is more than just a single heard on the radio these days. You can follow it up rather than having no idea what the rest of the peoples work is like.

I'd strayed away from the music pages and was reading about brainwaves yesterday evening!!!!

Didn't get any extra sleep today but did get to the docs then off to Sainsbury's. Not such an easy walk back today probably because my muscles were still adapting to last night's changes. But, wasn't too bad. I just got a bit wheezy at times as my lungs were expanding a bit more. Had to stop more than usual because they were getting used to being able to expand a bit more and. because I was walking and putting so many muscles into action, it caused a few problems.

It was snowing while I was out. Just a few flake's, nothing heavy and none of it settling. The wind was a bit chilly though.

Monday

Fell asleep with the light on last night and then when I woke up, about three hours later, had rather too much muscle movement to get much more sleep though so kept on sort of dozing off and then waking up again.

So ... half an hour's meditation to try and make up for a bit of the sleep loss etc.

Someone said yesterday that they couldn't really imagine me not really being t5hat interested in music. Well, I did go through a time when I felt separated from it. I wasn't like, say, John Peel, where musiv took up so much if my life .. and really most people I knew of my ager didn't talk that much about music. Oftem, I think because life had just taken them away from it, bringing up a family and working plus trying to fit other things into their time had pushed it more to the background.

But, also, because a lot of the new innovative stuff was coming from much younger people and there weren't the social connections etc to it you have when most people of your age group are socializing to it and talking about it. You might not even get to hear much om the radio if there are other things you want to catch up on.

Yeah, I did lose interest for a while until I was looking after mum really and them, at times, it was there for relaxation. Had still played my own music though on the guitar and had listened on the radio .. just there hadn't been the kind of interest there had been before.

And, in the earlier days there wasn't the music to listen to online like there is now.

.. in my young days, back when dinosaurus rex or was it Tyranosaurus Rex padded the planet

http://www.marmalade-skies.co.uk/tyrex.htm

and

Brontosaurus

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brontosaurus_(Move_song)

You just got to hear what was played on the radio basically if you didn't have a more active interest.

But, I didn't even play my favourite cds that much during those years. I don't anymore though the ones I mentioned are what I'd take with me to me desert island.

I'd just slowly moved away from mt deep interest that I'd had before though did still play at times. Was probably disappointed by my journey into New Age music too though I had loved other music around that time that I heard through other people, like The Orb and Spacemen 3.

Am now listening to this

http://www.jamendo.com/en/album/60790

There're only two tracks .. and I've been playing it for sometime .. just having it very softly playing in the background.

Sunday

Slept well last night .. didn't wake up til almost midday. Stomach still not quite right though so I might give the hospital a ring .. see how I'm feeling tomorrow.

Seems there's a lot of ambient/new agey type music out there now, both in the CC and the commercial worlds that I like. The earlier music just didn't quite gel with me for some reason or other.

There are lots of people who do like it though. I was reading that one of the musicians has sold over two million albums in the last twenty or so years but they weren't what I was looking for though, looking at the pictures and descriptions that used to go with them and other albums like them, they could've been.

Found another CC site that I'll go over to soon to listen to their music

http://softphase.org/netlabel/

Saturday

I slept better than usual Dozed off during the evening for a couple of hours and then slept for another five or so in the early morning.

Was thinking back over my music when I woke up and realised that I'd forgotten the two or three years I spent trying to find some new age music that I liked. I bought quite a few cds over those years but didn't really find anything that I liked that much though I knew that there must be music that sounded a bit like this that I would like.

As no one I knew was very interested in it I was left out on a limb a bit. Never did find anything that I really loved or even really liked that much. Time has moved on and there's been a huge growth in that type of music and it's veered more towards things I like than it used to. Well, as far as I know .. probably managed to miss something at the time. I just followed reviews in a new agey magazine and was probably a bit too swayed by pictures of crystals and dream catchers etc on the cds covers!!!

Not talking about spacey music by people like The Orb and Spacemen 3 but albums that had names like .. say .. Mystic Quartz or Wolverine's Star Dreams and were described as new age. Don't know why but I just couldn't get into it. Nor the music that was described as ambient at the time either.

Friday

Back to the docs this morning. Hardly slept last night cause I felt so rough so wasn't expecting to be able to go. Eventually dozed off though and woke up around eightish, took me meds and thought that I was feeling well enough to try and walk it.

Wasn't too bad so I thought I'd go to Tesco .. didn't feel like going into Clapham. Had to go to the chemist first, so did that and then over to Tesco.

Got back and realised that I'd left something in the chemist. Phoned them around five but the phone was on the answerphone so just left a message. Then thought that I'd try walking round. Did and then decided to go into Clapham

Am feeling it a bit now I guess but am still better than I was yesterday and last night .. am very tired though.

Chipmunka

This site is for people who've have health problems .. say suffering from an illness or mood disorder like bi polar disorder or schizophrenia or depression .. or the people who know them .. and have a story to tell or who write poetry.

http://www.chipmunkapublishing.co.uk/site/

http://chipmunkapublishing.co.uk/site/index.php?id=1,8,0,0,1,0


One in Four

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/health/1578755.stm

And, ofcourse, it's not just helping the people who write but is also a treasure trove of information.

Stephen Fry, who suffers from bi polar condition. is one of the people who have helped yje organization.

Desert island discs

Someone asked the other day if I was on a desert island with no radio access for a year which ten albums I'd take with me. These 10 albums would be the only music I'd hear while I was there.

I realised that I'd probably pick music for it's nostalgia value which meant music from my youth really as that was the time I really connected most because I was socializing in a musical comtext more than I did at any other part of my life. When I was with friends we listened to music a lot and spoke about it, danced to it and sometimes played it. As the years went on things changed and music took more of a backseat I guess.

Though I did always have a paw on the radio dial so to speak but I'd buy a record a year and that was that generally. Well, you know, something like that.

I'd pack

Country Joe and The Fish's Feel Like I'm Fixing to Die

Buffy Sainte Marie's She Used to want to be a Ballerina

A Donovan Greatest Hits cd

Jimi Hendrix Electric Ladyland

A Robert Johnson blues cd

A collection of sitar music for meditation

Then I think I'd add

A couple of the dreamy ambient collections from Earthmantra

Pedro Collares Organic Healing Sound from Jamendo

Mindthings Lifes Path

That's it.

It's difficult not to pick the early albums though because of the way music from your teens seems to stay with you throughout your life in a kind of favourite music/nostalgia mix.

The ones like the Donovan Greatest Hits I'd have to have a look through the compilation albums to see which one I liked best.

Hum hmmmmmm hum

I've been listening to this album again today .. find it relaxing

http://www.jamendo.com/en/album/5923

Think it was one of the first full collections of music I heard on Jamendo.

I still think it's a shame people don't put their lyrics up on this site .. or on their own sites if they link to them.

You listen to something that might have some really cool lyrics but if you can't understand them they could be singing anything. I know people translate the titles but you'd still get so much closer and deeper if you could translate the lyrics too.

They spend all that time writing the music and the songs yet don't give people who can't understand the vocals a doorway into their songs.

Music is the universal language and it's just missing being even more so here and letting us all understand all the song lyrics too not just the note ones.

Feeling a bit better

Didn't go to the docs today .. wasn't feeling that great so thought I'd cancel my appointment. My chest and tummy have felt a bit raw since the sneezes thought I'd let them settle. It varies so much though .. settles down and I'm ready to fly .. well ... potter slowly .. out the door .. then it starts feeling rough again. Guess it's just a bug .. someone else here told me their tummy had swollen up while they had a cold earlier this week. Days since I sneezed though.

Still, it's much better than yesterday so guess I'm on the mend. Just it's not going to happen as fast for me as most other people.

Hopefully tomorrow.

I've been resting.

Relaxation

Didn't sleep much last night .. think it was mainly down to my cold .. can make things ache more than usual .. the pills can do that for a week or so when the dose is changed .. so who kn ows.

Haven't really been doing much .. apart from resting .. not exactly sleeping though I do doze off now and then.

Did meditate for a little while this morning though found it difficult to concentrate which was down to my cold. Was reading a bit about meditation. Found a guided meditation that I thought was going to be a bit like one of W.J Ousby's .. maybe more of a simple relaxation technique really .. well, it should've been.

But wasn't. It was kind of an adaption. Mr Ousby suggests counting from 1 to 10 very slowly clenching and relaxing your muscles from the head to your toes and then relazing them while thinking that yiou are feeling more and more relaxed.

Say you think 10 in your mind and push your head back into the pillow for a count of 10 and then release the muscles and think I'm feeling more and more relaxed ,, then 9 ... 9 and screw your facial muscles up for a count of 10, then release them and think I'm feeling more and more relaxed .. then 8 .. 8 .. or 8 .. however you want to say it and I'm feeling more and more relaxed .. then work your way through the muscles. If you've finished before getting to 1 .. just say I'm feeling more and more relaxed as you go through the numbers.

When you get to 1 you can relax for as long as you like concentrating on the feeling of relaxation in your muscles. Then, when you feel like it, slowly count from 1 to 10 thinking I'm feeling more and more awake.

The guy who did the meditation had adapted it in a way that demanded too much initial concentration that wasn't very relaxing and then didn't bother to count back from 10 t0 1 again.

I found him. under a different name .. not for any reason other than he likes to play with words .. and he seemed to have lost interest in his meditation/relaxation technique. He's written a couple more which I haven't read. Not surprizing really because the way he'd written them wouldn't've worked very well.

Mr Ousby's exercises are adaptions of centuries old techniques which are now often used as a relaxation help.

Resting

Just relaxing I know the sneeze shifted things mere than would usually happen but I'm not too bad .. best to rest though. Got to wait while my meds sort themselves out too ... unfortunately it doesn't happen overnight ... though I will be trying some completely new treatment soon, rather than just mixing the amounts of medicines I'm already taking, which is what's happening at the moment.

Am drinking more too as I guess I was becoming a bit dehydrated even with all the water I down with me meds.

Monday

Off to the docs quite early this morning and then up to Clapham. Suppose I shouldn't've really .. well, shouldn't've gone to Clapham anyway as I'd been debating whether I should really be going to the docs before I started out

The walk wasn't too bad though all things considered. Still very tired though and still not quite over yesterday's sneeze.